So, here are a few things that can make you the worst maid of honor ever.
1. Ask the bride and/or the brides mother to pay for your dress.
2. Ask the bride and/or brides mother to pay for your hair and nails.
3. Wait a month until the wedding to say you may not be able to pay for the dress.
4. Saying the wedding is white trash because of a certain theme/color.

Yeah. These are the four horrible things that happened to me. Word to the wise, if you ever get married, don't have Katye Wennes as your M.O.H.
I may be being childish, and a bitch, but I feel betrayed and hurt and am honestly so happy that Katye and I are no longer friends.
She says I drink to much. But I don't, nor can I with my work schedule. The only reason she said that in the first place was because she was on a medication the weekend of the wedding which restricted her drinking activities. If it was not for those pills she would've been more shit faced than Josh or I.
I'm sure everyone is sick of hearing/reading about this, but I haven't exactly gotten to rant and rave about it yet.
So, I apologize.

You know, I may not exactly know what a true good friend is, but I do know a good friend is supposed to be there for you. Especially on the biggest day of your life. And that one was mine, and I felt so betrayed. I guess my one day wasn't worth Katyes' while, to be a good friend to me. Just a day for her to stab me in the back and be a bitch/slut. Whichever works for you. If I was bad enough to stoop to her level, I would fill Ryan in on everything that she does/has done behind his back. But, I'm better than that and better than her. She doesn't deserve Ryan. He's too good for her.

Well, hell! That felt really good.

I'm done now. I'll stop boring you.

So I'm Mrs. Joshua Michael Wheeler now and I couldn't be happier. The wedding was amazing and the honeymoon was too. I'm just so happy. Back to work tomorrow. Back to reality I guess.

Ttyl.

So Josh and I got my wedding ring yesterday. It's 1/4 carat gold. It's gorgeous. Its getting resized and it will be back on the twenty third of this month. I'm getting no wedding jitters thank goodness.
I'm just a little upset that Katye waits until the last minute to tell me that she thinks she can't afford the dress anymore.
The dresses will be back next week. It kinda sucks. Honestly, they aren't even that expensive. She justs likes to blow all of her money on alcohol. I would love to blow my money but I can't. I have bills and rent to pay; two cats and a dog to take care of. It's not that simple for me.
I wish it was. I wish it could all be simple.

I'm so frustrated with work too. For the past four or five days I've been getting off forty five minutes to an hour later than I'm supposed to. It annoys me. If you want me that long then schedule me that long god damnit.
Ugh.
2 months until Joshs' 25th birthday. I have no clue what I'm getting him this year.
It sucks.
Oh well.
I'm off now to get fitted for my dress for the first time. =]

Sometimes, I do feel empty. I don't know exactly why I feel this sometimes, but I do.
I'm watching Jurassic Park and it makes me miss being a kid and being retarded.
I never thought when I said I can't wait for high school to be over with, that one day I would completely miss it.
My friends, my teenage retardness. Hell, even school. I'm just lost without it I guess.
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad to be done with homework and teachers, but the relationships I had with friends aren't really there anymore. I don't know if it's because everyone has moved on and gone to college and I haven't or something else. It's just sad sometimes when i think about how simple life was. I know it's only been a year since we've all been graduated, but honestly, it feels like a lifetime.
I feel like I'm the failure out of our group.
Although I don't smoke weed anymore, I do drink. I do not go to college. I work at McDonalds, where I will undoubtedly be the rest of my life. I will be stuck in Port Clinton, Ohio for the rest of my life. Which will probably only be three more years, believing the world will end 12/21/2012. Unless my mild cancerous cells grow into more severe ones and cause me to get cervical cancer. Which I'm not 100% sure if I could die from that, but none the less I do have cancerous cells. Which sucks ass. Let me tell you.
Well, I have digressed now, haven't I?
Joshua and I have applied for a house near my parents house. It is a beautiful house. Only $100 more a month that what we pay here. We find out today if we got it or not. I have a gut feeling that we are not getting it, but I'm just hoping and keeping my fingers crossed that we get the good phone call that says we have it.
I better be off though.
Bye.